Anxiety Disorder

I have an anxiety disorder. It runs in my family. Almost every day I have this overwhelming feeling I'm dying. Which sounds silly, but honestly I convince myself I am. I have been to the doctors, I would just like to take a medication for this, like the rest of my family, but my doctor wants me to see a therapist, which i said no to. Incase anyone isn't really sure what Anxiety is, or the symptoms of an anxiety disorder, here is the definition and a few of them.

Anxiety is a general term for several disorders that cause nervousness, fear, apprehension, and worrying. These disorders affect how we feel and behave, and they can manifest real physical symptoms. Mild anxiety is vague and unsettling, while severe anxiety can be extremely debilitating, having a serious impact on daily life.


Do your symptoms indicate an anxiety disorder?
If you identify with several of the following signs and symptoms, and they just won’t go away, you may be suffering from an anxiety disorder.

Are you constantly tense, worried, or on edge?

Does your anxiety interfere with your work, school, or family responsibilities?

Are you plagued by fears that you know are irrational, but can’t shake?
This one stood out for me because of my attacks where I think I'm dying. I go to the ER a few times a week, well I used to, until my family got sick of it.

Do you believe that something bad will happen if certain things aren’t done a certain way?

Do you avoid everyday situations or activities because they cause you anxiety?

Do you experience sudden, unexpected attacks of heart-pounding panic?

Do you feel like danger and catastrophe are around every corner?

Feelings of apprehension or dread

Trouble concentrating

Feeling tense and jumpy

Anticipating the worst

Irritability

Restlessness

Watching for signs of danger

Feeling like your mind’s gone blank

Also anxiety isn't just in your head. It isn't just emotional. It does effect you physically.

Pounding heart
Sweating
Stomach upset or dizziness
Frequent urination
Shortness of breath
Tremors and twitches
Muscle tension
Headaches
Fatigue
Insomnia

I have all of those.
A lot of people don't take anxiety disorders seriously, which upsets me. It is a serious matter.
I just wanted to know if anyone else was suffering from an anxiety disorder, and what they do to try to calm down. I honestly haven't found a way to calm down yet.

If anyone remembers my freakout on the forum (N, Fallen Angel,Dark Riku,etc.) they should know the story behind it.Basically I also suffer from anxiety, which also stems into OCD like behavoir. I constantly worry, I have a hard time falling asleep it just sucks. I started taking meds for it this June. The week of my freakout I hadn't taken the pills for a week (I ran out and was in college away from home and didn't know where to go to get my meds xd). Suffice it to say, College stress, living away from home, DN stress, lack of sleep and meds all came into one and caused a massive breakdown. I joined my friend for a late night smoke run at 3am the night of my freakout. During this walk to the store I literally sounded like I was high my roommate told me. The stuff I was saying, etc. I was singing Pinkie Pie's Singing Telegram in the college parking lot at 3am... fuuuuuuun stuff. Basically yeah, I have extreme anxiety to the point of exhaustion. Main reason why I am on DN so late at night, because I can't fall asleep. My mind just constantly runs and I cannot shut it off. I worry to much, etc. Tis a horrid fate...

http://forum.duelingnetwork.com/t8851-the-eye-of-the-storm-the-tempest-has-subsided

Oh btw, I don't smoke but he did. Altough whenever I was at college people always asked me for lighters. I do look like a smoker I guess... so it only seems natural. Seriously, people just bust out of no where and ask me. This one time I was walking. This guy with clad in hip clothing, hat backwards, scruffy beard just throws this door open by a dumpster, locks eyes with me, points and makes a B line towards me shouting "Hey, you gotta lighter?", I said no, all I hear?
F-BOMB.

I have anxiety. And OCD. And Autism. And ADHD. And Depression. And do you know what I do with it? I channel all of the pain, all of the hatred and loathing into a fire that smelts my mind into a perfect form. For every down, there is an up.

im pretty sure im not bad as everybody else is posted but i do get test anxiety really bad

I have no real disorders, disabilities or troubles of this kind. But I do know of some other members of the community with similar problems, who I won't mention for their sake, but you're not alone.


I do however have these weird hippy senses, that usually kick in if I spend too much time in a shopping mall. Or like, any time at all in a casino.


I just want to get the hell outside.

It's only a problem if I get bored in malls though. I'm diametrically opposed to Casinos, however.


It's actually not such a big deal for me, but perhaps the closest thing.

good news: Hey everyone just wanted you to know I'm making a new appointment with my doctor and i might go see a pyschatrist so they can perscribe me the right medications I need . Woooo. but it might be too late for finals .

bad news:doctor thinks i have sleeping disorder/ most likely have depression

^ i don't understand I'm always happy :3 except when im freaking out

CheyMcFly wrote:good news: Hey everyone just wanted you to know I'm making a new appointment with my doctor and i might go see a pyschatrist so they can perscribe me the right medications I need . Woooo. but it might be too late for finals .

bad news:doctor thinks i have sleeping disorder/ most likely have depression

^ i don't understand I'm always happy :3 except when im freaking out

I'm pretty sure there's more to clinical depression than feeling sad all the time and never happy, but I'm not a doctor so I don't actually know.

nsanejokr wrote:I'm pretty sure there's more to clinical depression than feeling sad all the time and never happy, but I'm not a doctor so I don't actually know.

You cannot move. You do not deserve to exist or deserve to have existed. To make a motion would be to desecrate the world, to live is to taint it. All sorrows are derived from your existence, and all joys end with you. All you share with any other being is your absolute hatred of yourself.
That is depression. The pills help, of course.

Potus-Mat wrote:

nsanejokr wrote:I'm pretty sure there's more to clinical depression than feeling sad all the time and never happy, but I'm not a doctor so I don't actually know.

You cannot move. You do not deserve to exist or deserve to have existed. To make a motion would be to desecrate the world, to live is to taint it. All sorrows are derived from your existence, and all joys end with you. All you share with any other being is your absolute hatred of yourself.
That is depression. The pills help, of course.

that is the saddest thing I've ever head :\
my doctor said im boderline that
but im waiting til my next visit which is hopefully soon :3

also i 100% no doubt have anxiety disorder..wooo.

CheyMcFly wrote:

Potus-Mat wrote:

nsanejokr wrote:I'm pretty sure there's more to clinical depression than feeling sad all the time and never happy, but I'm not a doctor so I don't actually know.

You cannot move. You do not deserve to exist or deserve to have existed. To make a motion would be to desecrate the world, to live is to taint it. All sorrows are derived from your existence, and all joys end with you. All you share with any other being is your absolute hatred of yourself.
That is depression. The pills help, of course.

that is the saddest thing I've ever head :\
my doctor said im boderline that
but im waiting til my next visit which is hopefully soon :3
also i 100% no doubt have anxiety disorder..wooo.

Welcome to every day of my life, Lady.
Luckily for me, Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors exist.

Clinical depression doesn't always hit so severe. More than half the people diagnosed with it are unaware of the problem. However, it is often over diagnosed.

The danger here, is that if you comply to the diagnosis but don't actually have a problem, then you're going to get one. But if you do have a problem, and don't, you're fucked.

I suggest musical therapy, which is to say, listening to a repertoire of early classical or baroque music while doing nothing else for at least an hour a day. It has been shown to influence endocrine, and have a higher rate of helping with low level depression (the kind that people don't always realize they have) than the medicine does. Though, higher level medicines will have more obvious but also more dangerous effects.


The bottom line is that the music therapy has NO side effects, works reasonably, and can be self medicated, while the other stuff works reasonably, has detrimental side effects and costs a pretty penny in the states.

Music therapy has the side effect of earworms. Terrible, terrible, earworms.

My family don't say it but i know i have ADD(Attention Deficit Disorder). It is very hard for me stay on one topic with someone since my disorder causes me to change topics, most of my friends has seen this in me. I am not sure if its anxiety but i get fidgety alot and i cant jsut stand in one place for like 5 minutes i have to do something or i will walk around like i know something good or bad will happen.

I am very emotional and i cannot help to feel that way all the time. When i go to bed every night it feels like i go to sleep then wake up like i was living the same day again nothing new, nothing catches my attention and nothing in this life ever pleases me.

I use music to calm me down that is why i like country so much, country is so soothing. I also try to do alot of things to keep my mind busy which sometimes backfires since my motor for speech is slower, my mind just tries to speed up making it overcome my motor deficiency.

When i was a freshman in high school i came on strong when talking to girls and i never had any lines so i didn't know no limits or when i was reaching the uncomfortable zone, i wanted to know everything about them every single second of their lives. So that caused me to be hated by them and made me become an outcast.

my anxiety is progressivly getting worse
Each night I'm scared to fall asleep because I'm scared I wont wake up. I've convinced myself that I'm constantly dying. And I've been having major "freak outs" i don't know what else to call them daily. and I don't like talking to my friends about this, I'm the one who never needs help or anything, and I know that's stupid, but it's how I am. I was raised to be strong, I had to be. I had to take care of me and my brother when i was just 7 years old. >_>
I just want to see my doctor. I want this to be okay. I want it to stop. I wish I could control my freak outs. Listening to my music does help sometimes too, but sometimes i just have to sit there, freaking out, having trouble breathing, moving for like an hour, until i just wear myself out and fall asleep or continue like it didn't happen. I'm lucky that the people who do know about it are very supportive, although they make fun of me for it sometimes, which i don't think is fair.

And i'm not sure if that's anxiety but I'm not a doctor. Have you tried consulting one? My mom is refusing to take me.. >_> evne though she has the same condition just not to this extreme

Potus-Mat wrote:Music therapy has the side effect of earworms. Terrible, terrible, earworms.

I laughed when I read this.

CheyMcFly wrote:my anxiety is progressivly getting worse
Each night I'm scared to fall asleep because I'm scared I wont wake up. I've convinced myself that I'm constantly dying. And I've been having major "freak outs" i don't know what else to call them daily. and I don't like talking to my friends about this, I'm the one who never needs help or anything, and I know that's stupid, but it's how I am. I was raised to be strong, I had to be. I had to take care of me and my brother when i was just 7 years old. >_>
I just want to see my doctor. I want this to be okay. I want it to stop. I wish I could control my freak outs. Listening to my music does help sometimes too, but sometimes i just have to sit there, freaking out, having trouble breathing, moving for like an hour, until i just wear myself out and fall asleep or continue like it didn't happen. I'm lucky that the people who do know about it are very supportive, although they make fun of me for it sometimes, which i don't think is fair.

And i'm not sure if that's anxiety but I'm not a doctor. Have you tried consulting one? My mom is refusing to take me.. >_> evne though she has the same condition just not to this extreme

I was thinking about it... Sometimes attacks originally might be triggered by something traumatic in the past of the person who is having the attacks? I mean, I know you said that it runs in your family... but is that not possible? Surely medicine can't be the only way someone can beat this...

exiled_force wrote:

CheyMcFly wrote:my anxiety is progressivly getting worse
Each night I'm scared to fall asleep because I'm scared I wont wake up. I've convinced myself that I'm constantly dying. And I've been having major "freak outs" i don't know what else to call them daily. and I don't like talking to my friends about this, I'm the one who never needs help or anything, and I know that's stupid, but it's how I am. I was raised to be strong, I had to be. I had to take care of me and my brother when i was just 7 years old. >_>
I just want to see my doctor. I want this to be okay. I want it to stop. I wish I could control my freak outs. Listening to my music does help sometimes too, but sometimes i just have to sit there, freaking out, having trouble breathing, moving for like an hour, until i just wear myself out and fall asleep or continue like it didn't happen. I'm lucky that the people who do know about it are very supportive, although they make fun of me for it sometimes, which i don't think is fair.
And i'm not sure if that's anxiety but I'm not a doctor. Have you tried consulting one? My mom is refusing to take me.. >_> evne though she has the same condition just not to this extreme

I was thinking about it... Sometimes attacks originally might be triggered by something traumatic in the past of the person who is having the attacks? I mean, I know you said that it runs in your family... but is that not possible? Surely medicine can't be the only way someone can beat this...

Death, pills, and a savant-level monk mental state are the only cures. Pills are, by far, the best choice.

Potus-Mat wrote:

exiled_force wrote:

CheyMcFly wrote:my anxiety is progressivly getting worse
Each night I'm scared to fall asleep because I'm scared I wont wake up. I've convinced myself that I'm constantly dying. And I've been having major "freak outs" i don't know what else to call them daily. and I don't like talking to my friends about this, I'm the one who never needs help or anything, and I know that's stupid, but it's how I am. I was raised to be strong, I had to be. I had to take care of me and my brother when i was just 7 years old. >_>
I just want to see my doctor. I want this to be okay. I want it to stop. I wish I could control my freak outs. Listening to my music does help sometimes too, but sometimes i just have to sit there, freaking out, having trouble breathing, moving for like an hour, until i just wear myself out and fall asleep or continue like it didn't happen. I'm lucky that the people who do know about it are very supportive, although they make fun of me for it sometimes, which i don't think is fair.
And i'm not sure if that's anxiety but I'm not a doctor. Have you tried consulting one? My mom is refusing to take me.. >_> evne though she has the same condition just not to this extreme

I was thinking about it... Sometimes attacks originally might be triggered by something traumatic in the past of the person who is having the attacks? I mean, I know you said that it runs in your family... but is that not possible? Surely medicine can't be the only way someone can beat this...

Death, pills, and a savant-level monk mental state are the only cures. Pills are, by far, the best choice.

yaayy....
and by doctor i mean any doctor, therapist, pyschatrist, pills.
And yes, I have had many traumatic experiences, i'm lucky I'm not worse off than i am. But I don't want to give my sob story of a life. That ain't me. I just want this to stop
it interferes with every thing and everyone i talk to. It's getting worse, but maybe I'm over reacting or just really stressed because of finals, either way i want to be okay. I've been like this as long as I remembered, I used to think it was normal. I want to not think i'm dying every day. I want one day where I don't feel sick. That's all. One day would be good enough for me

Then go to the doctor and get doped up to your eye sockets The sooner, the better.

Halberdier wrote:Clinical depression doesn't always hit so severe. More than half the people diagnosed with it are unaware of the problem. However, it is often over diagnosed.

The danger here, is that if you comply to the diagnosis but don't actually have a problem, then you're going to get one. But if you do have a problem, and don't, you're fucked.

I suggest musical therapy, which is to say, listening to a repertoire of early classical or baroque music while doing nothing else for at least an hour a day. It has been shown to influence endocrine, and have a higher rate of helping with low level depression (the kind that people don't always realize they have) than the medicine does. Though, higher level medicines will have more obvious but also more dangerous effects.


The bottom line is that the music therapy has NO side effects, works reasonably, and can be self medicated, while the other stuff works reasonably, has detrimental side effects and costs a pretty penny in the states.

Potus-Mat wrote:Music therapy has the side effect of earworms. Terrible, terrible, earworms.

Halberdier wrote:listening to a repertoire of early classical or baroque music while doing nothing else for at least an hour a day.

It'd be suggested that you listen to a symphony, not repeating it in your hour. And even if you did repeat, classical music is not often known for being riddled with ear worms.

i get these panic attacks where my Stomach gets upset sweetyness it usely happens when i leave the house and leave my bros and sises behind becuse im afrade im going to come back and there going to be gone or or hurt etc just no way to clame my self down tell im back and everything is safe anxiety is the thing that keeps me awake at night thinking when i wake up is everything going to be ok? just hard to keep telling your self yes its going to be ok

i'm sorry if this is considered necroing the topic or whatever but I just want to know if anyone has any tips while HAVING and anxiety attack. I get them frequently and I just wait until I'm worn out, but there has to be a better way. The breathing technique doesn't always do it for me, any tips?

I don't think I have any of the above disorders but I do have a sort of calming technique that I like to do sometimes.

You sit down and find a view that looks calm (not to much stuff moving to much and not to much different stuff like objects or trash laying around).
Then In that view you search for a very irrelevant object. Like if you look outside you look to a small bush a body of water or something else that is stationary. When you find it you just go into a very deep stare. just stare at it, focus on it and let everything else in your view just fade away. With this your mind should slowly go empty and you hart rate should go down. If you do it more often you can do it without an object and just stare anywhere. It's kinda like daydreaming without the dreaming.
I find it very relaxing.